oooh, i would live in the 40-50's era *drools over images of cars*

man I could go on and on... fuck men, all you need in life is you're car.

what other superhero is THIS awesome?! none!

ya, props to powdered toast man.

Ha that's easy: my ex

stole it from an_argument

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
I'd say I'm mingling with the term "single".

2) What was your dream growing up?
To be a lawyer or a cowgirl.

3) What talent do you wish you had?
Dancing. Like ballet.

4) Favorite drink?
Orange juice.

5) Favorite vegetable?
Tied between avocado and mushrooms.

6) What was the last book you read?
Attempting Sense & Sensibility but it's been hard to find time and patience for it.

7) What zodiac sign are you?
Libra

8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
yea: piece on my left hip, piece on my back, planning and saving for my shoulder/sleeve, ears gaged and pierced, nipples, thinking about a monroe.

9) Worst Habit?
Inability to say no.

10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
Yea, hop in my invisible car.

11) What is your favorite sport?
Drinking.

12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
Neither, the outcome of things usually has no effect on me so I just would rather not care.

13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Have a dance party until we got bored.

14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
rape is up in my top three, but really I'd have to say high school.

15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
sometimes I like to pretend like I know someone just to embarrass them.

16) Do you have any pets?
an old-ass dog and a foul-tempered cockatiel. I'm planning to have them stuffed so they'll be much more pleasant.

17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
I'd be a little confused.

18) What was your first impression of me?
I liked you're book bag.

19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
creepy.

20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
I'd like to have paler skin.

21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
crime partner.

22) What eyecolor do you have?
greenish hazel, sometimes gray.

23) Ever been arrested?
haha, they wish... fucking pigs.

24) What's your real name/nickname?
Dana, how the fuck do you come up with a nickname for that? but really I have two, Dah-na-na-na and Squeaky.

25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Invest it

26) Bottle or can soda?
bottle means beer right?

27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
the bowling alley, because they think i'm 21

28) Do you believe in ghosts?
yea...

29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
clean shit

30) Do you swear a lot?
like a fucking sailor

31) Biggest pet peeve?
people with low self esteem, and who take things personally. grow some fucking skin

32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
the. there, one word, and it doesn't describe me so HAH

33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
i guess, but if it moves into the category of i-need-some-space then no, i hate it.

34) What will your grandchildren say about you to their children?
that i was the black sheep of the family and am the sole reason they all are hella fucked up

35) Do you believe in God?
nope, waay too many mistakes.

36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
what?

So I realized today that steven and scot are one in the same, except that steven never shared his feeling and scot shared too many of them.

In other news I've seen ALOT of people from high school on COM's campus. It's scary.

Apparently I'm the "yes" girl, the girl who can't say no and is gullible enough to talk to anyone. I thought I was just charming and nice but. it's worse than that. I'm vulnerable to anything, I have no shell. This sucks, because I already felt vulnerable and I realized that really I'm just really really easily-influenced and rushed into things.

People like scot and steven and everybody I know influence me. Thankfully though I think I can be my self this year. That's my goal.

My next goal is to save up and go to Europe again.

Work sucks as usual, but it could be worse, I could be working at Tilly's.

So I finally get sick after calling in sick twice before when I wasn't sick. All I have to say is that karma's a bitch.

I did clean a lot today though and sadly I broke my pipe, after it had finally just begin to fit in my life.

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Rest In Peace
Huevos Benidict
June 07 - Jan 08
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He dropped out of my jacket but then again it's a chance for me to get an even better one.

here it be the big survey of 07
( clicky )

favorite music for a sunday morning would easily be fiest.

i wish i had a cock so i could hang a wreath over myself.

since i don't, i'm just doing the usual...

This time I missed the bus by like 30 seconds and had to wait another hours for the next bus, right at the peak of commute, then causing my usual 45 min bus ride to be 2 hours long. I still haven't gotten around to complaining either. Stupid golden gate transit.

Assembly required.

this is for micho.

You are a lame lj friend and if you don't reply i'll never hand over that damned rug

This morning I woke up and felt and overwhelming sense of love. I realized no matter how little we see each other, both of us know the feeling is there and will be.

But a relationship is more than a feeling, it's a commitment, to that person, to supporting them through the worst, and deciding how your lives fit together. It's the latter that has me, it's what will make-or-break it.

I wish I knew what to do or how to go about it. but the thing is how do you start a conversation like that?

I think I'll start talking to my dog about it, to practice. She's about as conversive as steven.

ughh....

I'm already starting to have problems with Steven. It started small and now has escalated to the point that i got so stressed out that I cried when I missed my bus today. The problem is that he's so silent and eager to please his friends that I feel left out of the picture. I feel like he sometimes forgets to treat me as his girlfriend, and I don't mean to make this sounds as though I'm above his friends but considering I take the bus to get to him once a week and make a serious effort to see him I feel I'm not getting quite the treatment I deserve. I ask people if I'm as good a gf as his ex Maggy and everyone constantly tells me how I make him so happy, yet his friend Kyle told me that he said "I don;t feel like I have a gf, but I do and I love her so much." I can't see it though, because 'the little things' aren't enough, especially if he's not going to talk on the phone with me. I mean we've been together for three months and he has barely told me anything about himself, I have to learn about him through others. Steven would soooo fail at speed dating. He's the tall, dark, silent type you know?

it pisses me off soo much because a) I'm slowly losing patience and b) I wish he'd act on my concerns. I ask him, when are we going to go to the movies, or go hiking or go to dinner or something... you know? Like what the fuck should I expect on our 6-month or 1-year anniversary?

I talked to him today after nearly crying just because he wouldn't talk to me about it, like I have to confront him about it, because all this weekend I felt sooo neglected and unappreciated. I told him "we should try to go to dinner alone or stay at home alone or something not every week but once in a while because I don't feel like I'm getting to spend time with you" and his response as always is "i just spent all yesterday and today with you" and I'm like "It's not the same when I arrive at your house to find out I won't see you for another 4 hours and then end up having to fight for your attention among ten of your friends who are still hungover from the night before and then when we get in bed you roll over and go to sleep, and then when I ask if you want to take a shower the next morning you mumble that you're too tired."

fucking-a. I love Steven but I can't be patient like this if he has no future ahead of him and from the looks of it I don't see our future together. I mean I used to but now I don't anymore because of this bullshit and all the cunts that come to his house and fuck shit up and then leave a mess and fucking upset Steven and I wish it didn't have to be this way. He may have a full beard and chest hair but I've got bigger balls than him to say to people "Get the fuck outta here, I'm trying to spend some fucking quality time with my bf!"

He can't help it though, Maggy fucked him over.

hey world:

please don't take for granted what you have that can be changed. you have your entire life to make up for your mistakes. but if you are like me there are things that will never change and will haunt you for your entire life. i hate being a liar and a coward to myself let alone everyone i know.

please just know that if you are loved, acknowledge it and give back to those that love you, no matter how it's shown. and if nothing horribly life changing has ever happened to you i'm sure there is some way to make it better.

oh and remember to recycle and be courteous.

thanks world,
the socially awkward

i say goddamn.

went to SLO this weeekend.

partied, details to come.

neither of us want to use the L-word but that's how it is.

he's like the guy you see across the room and wonder why you can't speak to him cuz he looks perfect. or like the guy in that band that you totally idolize. only he is that and it's amazing. we finish one-another's sentences and can talk forever without getting bored. and basically we do everything together but go to class. he's still a virgin(i think it's sweet) and i can tell him anything.

problem, case still calls me. and i don't pick up the phone.i want david to pick up for me and stand up for me or something because really it bothers me. :(

otherwise though we talked the other night about our feelings, and i told him, as much as sparks are flying and it's amazing and i love being with him, it hasn't been even a week but i feel like i've known him my entire life and it's hard to even go one night not sleeping beside him. so we're dating but nothing official yet, but it will happen, just it's weird to think that so early meeting someone that you could feel this way. then again i've never felt this way.

i wish everybody could be this happy and care about someone so much that nothing else matters.

marriedtothesea.com

this is all i'm going to ponder about today, and be stupid fucking high out of my mind while doing so...